I'm not happy.

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I feel like a pansy

it's just gonna be two weeks...
but I'm gonna be far from my house and my family.
Baaah.

Greaaat.

Some people have good luck. Some others miss an amazing free play at a park because our bicycles' cranks come fully off as we ride home from walmart to then attempt to make it to the park a few minutes late. WHEEEEEE.

Sunday night

Packing is going by really slowly. I hate packing... I dislike the idea of simply packing my life and taking it with me (again) someplace else.
Shakespeare on the lake will be going on in one hour and ten minutes. ...I doubt I'll make it.
I don't wanna go away...
Mau.

Friday night

This time has been eventful, and not necessarily in a good way. Mandi's dad passed away, and ever since then, I feel like I should be around for a while. Mandi is a strong girl, but she might always need some company to be happy. I gave her a necklace with a key that said courage on it. Today in her dad's viewing, she wore it. I was happy that she did. God, even my friends cried. Tomorrow is his funeral. Don... you were a great dude.
He helped me out with a table when I bought it. I just called him and asked for help, and within minutes, he came over and helped me with it. I wish I had known you better.
But from down here, all I can do now is just help your family through this difficult time.
Tomorrow I will go to Don's funeral. Mandi will be there. I hope she is okay.
I'll miss capoeira for saturday and then for the following two ish weeks. I'm going to work for 16 days straight.
Away from friends and family. My only company will be my cellphone and coworkers. I wanna talk to Ariel on the phone some time, now that I think of it...
Grey County, Fergus, back to Grey County, then London, then Grey County again... I hope it goes well.
Mau.

I don't feel all that great...

Beauty of the day: Old faces. Familiar faces. Although it wasn't a good day, it was good to see them.
It sucks that somebody had to die for us to get back together and have food in the same place.

On the other hand... I'm tired. I do a lot, and I get shit just for having my bike inside the house. Fuck, I just don't want it stolen. And no, it doesn't matter whatever good things I've done today. Nothing matters. It just matters that my bike was wherever my asswipe brother wanted to sit.
I just want a break.

Sunday night. Oh Sunday.

Beauty of the day: Sunday capoeira. Hanging with Camarao and Macaco.
This weekend has been a bit of a pain. My brother's bitchyness is just out of control. All I can do is just avoid the house and just do my shit, and hope he doesn't fuck up more than he already has. It's been an alright weekend. Keep telling yourself that.
Saturday was okay, I went to capoeira, then watched Ip Man again. Not productive, but alright.
Sunday, I woke up late, avoided my brother, and went to capoeira. We usually don't do Sundays, but my teacher wanted to go to the academy. Sometimes I wonder if his home life is alright.
I mean... no holidays, sometimes sundays... but that's no problem of mine.
Then, I went to burger king, after wandering for a while on my bicycle. It's funny, the easiest way home is the longest. I like it. It's... long. xD
But yes, this weekend was an alright weekend. Regardless of the shitty parts of it.

Mau, you gotta learn.

Beauty of the day:
Bikes and speed.
Today I had my bike re-fixed, after they fucked up setting my bike. I've done tons today, but most of it is related to my other blog.
Karim and me finished Dead Space two days ago, and today he bought assassin's creed and lost planet. We'll beat those. It's gonna be awesome.
I talked to Mel today. She's doing... good, ish. Like always. Today I realized how far in life she's been compared to me. I feel like, I stayed behind, compared to some people I've known, including her. Sometimes I wish I had enough balls to delete my email addresses and to change my numbers and just... waltz away from this story.
On the bright side of things... I really feel like I should let Ariel know when I'm not gonna be near a computer. I really like talking to her. I feel bad thinking that she'll be waiting for me to log on and me just not being able to.
-Mau.